I put it all on the
line and what happens happens.
Life screws you in the ass
and just gets up and leaves.
I put friends aside
and my past life.
I forgot about things
and I changed.
I gave up my religion.
I gave up my beliefs.
I gave up all I ever wanted to be
but it wasn't good enough
and I was never there.
I was never the one to hold your hand.
I was never the perfect for your eyes.
I was always the one to close the blinds.
But still in the end,
it never mattered.
Cause life is but a fairytell
cause it always gets splattered.
I give up all for only one...
I took a leap of faith
but it was only to find a new grave.
Life doesn't matter,
your going to die soon.
My life just got splattered
so please step on me with your shoe.
It doesn't hurt anymore
because pain doesn't exist.
Emotions are gone and
love is now a list
of what once was
and now what is...
life was all a dream
and now I am pissed.
So fuck my heart and
fuck my world.
Fuck the things I always told you
because it never worked.
You made a promise
and I made one too,
we never worked it out because you never wanted too...
run away and play your game...
keep running
and find your end one day.
Run away from all that hurts,
for all there is in life
is a bucket of short words.
Nothing really matters,
nothing ever did.
Apparently now I can see the future without a kid.
No family,
no life,
no love,
no wife.
Nothing but lies
and a pocket full of prides.
I worship myself now
and I am all that matters,
I am the only thing I trust
because life is now splattered.
My friends,
my family
all ran away.
And now as a reminder you just had to say...
"goodbye, you weren't there when I needed you"
and I was always trying
but forgivness is such a bitch to you.
Its okay, I understand...
your hurt and your life is worse...
I never had a father that even cared
but that is my curse.
He planted a seed
and with it came me...
a fuck up of a child
who would soon grow free.
A kid who would grow and
finally be as a tree...
one who lives for others
and they all eat from me.
But once he gives his life to a girl named lexii...
his roots become shorter
with such speed...
seems as though a curse had hit me
at once...
but then to find out
she cut me down
with the axe I handed to her...
made of all the hurts and pains
that I gave for her to see...
never again will I be for others
just as a tree grows free....